What is My Why?
When did I first realize I wasn’t on my most authentic path? It was when life felt completely numb. I was checking all the boxes—getting married, having babies, becoming a mom, working at the hospital, landing a stable, comfortable job. On paper, it looked like I had it all. No worries, no problems.
Not true.
Curveball after curveball kept hitting me. I was pouring everything outward and getting nothing back. Anger started bubbling inside—who was that? Sadness. Impatience (and if you know me, you know I’m usually full of patience). Anxiety crept in. Life felt out of control. My husband and kids were struggling too. And I started asking myself, What am I even doing?
Then COVID hit. Another curveball.
Work got harder, and my soul started screaming at me: This isn’t your place anymore. My energy wasn’t being used for its purpose; it was being drained. I was told to care less, do less, just get the tasks done. That broke me. Caring isn’t something you just turn off. And the world? It felt completely upside down.
My personal life wasn’t any better. My car broke down, family responsibilities piled up, and nothing I did seemed to help. I thought I was losing my husband to intrusive thoughts. My kids were fighting with each other, with us—it felt like I was failing at everything.
But even at rock bottom, something inside me refused to quit. That little voice wouldn’t let me give up. The universe stepped in with a smackdown: Change your life! Who are you? Listen.
So, I started listening—not with my ears but with my feelings. That’s when things began to shift. Slowly, I began taking care of myself, relearning who I am, and figuring out what I’m really here to do.
Who am I now?
Sophie 2.0—a work in progress but someone who finally feels alive again. I’ve learned so much...Here is my starting point:
• Feelings: Turns out I’d buried so many of them under distractions and trying to help everyone else. Learning to feel again has been messy but worth it.
• Boundaries: I used to have none. Now, I’m learning to set them, and it’s still an ongoing process.
• Meditation: I never thought I could do it—my mind was always too busy. But I learned that meditation doesn’t have to be perfect or still. Active meditation led me to quiet moments, and now I embrace whatever works for me.
This journey led me to healing practices that changed my life. I’m now a Traditional Usui Reiki Master Teacher and a Tuning Fork Practitioner, helping others activate their energy and find balance in their body, mind, and spirit. I also guide people through spiritual insights and high-vibrational energy work, helping them see their lives with clarity and compassion.
And this is just the beginning. I’m constantly growing, learning, and building a beautiful, connected studio community where people can heal and thrive.
Was it easy? No. Am I blessed? Absolutely. Even at my hardest moments, working 24/7 as an entrepreneur and working towards abundance on all fronts....I wouldn’t change a thing. Every crack in my life brought me here, and I’ll keep doing the work to honor this path.
What if there is absolutely nothing for you to fix?
Your not broken!
It's just time to peel back the layers and feel...feeling is hard....but so worth it! Choose you, choose your feelings and leave the distractions behind.
Start listening to the best music of all time...your beautiful authentic beat?
YOU!
Thank you for being here, for letting me share more of my story, and for opening your heart to this connection.
With love,
Sophie
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